We’re bringing in 2026, I see.

I, frankly, am over 2025. A terrible year for many people, including myself. However, I have learned so much about life and myself in general that I can carry over into the new year the lessons I have learned. I plan to, rather.

I want to desperately get back into my hobbies. Mainly gaming. I want to get my room organized to the point where I am comfortable living in my space. I need to learn discipline, and I think this current Capricorn season will help out with that.

School is school. I hate this ITIL 4 mess. It’s a lot of word vomit, and my brain isn’t enjoying the study time at all. I can barely focus on the definitions and context without getting bored and wanting to do something else. Discipline. I need discipline. Same with money. Discipline. Same with working out. Discipline.

I want to buy a gaming desktop PC so badly, but the funds are just not there. I may have to buy everything separately, and then hopefully by June, put everything together and hope that it works. I have approximately $1,200 in Affirm and $1,400 in ZIP, and I am confident that I can manage these payments. At least with affirm I know I can, ZIP is a different beast that requires you to pay every two weeks. I hate that so much.

Speaking of money, School is $510 a month, and the car note is $650 a month. I only make $1300 every two weeks. I have to pay down my Affirm so I can get the overall credit back to where it was. I really want to get it to $3000 to $4000 like I had it before. Then I can get my gaming desktop PC and trade in my MacBook for something with more space and memory.

I want to relearn Photoshop, learn Adobe Illustrator, and try to crack open Dreamweaver, or alternatively, relearn HTML5 and CSS.

I have a lot of wants, but what do I need?

I need to finish school. I gotta lock in and fast! I need to find a new job or take on a secondary gig that I can do for an extra $500 to $1000 a month at my leisure. I need to reconnect with spirituality. That is a must for my mental health, but do it better than I did before. Really study and be faithful, and open myself up to the universe. I need to do something about the clothes I have and the room I reside in. It’s too junky, and I need a clean and organized space. I need to push myself more when I work out. I’m currently trying to do 3 days a week. I have purchased adjustable dumbbells that can be converted into a barbell and a kettlebell, so I plan to use them at home. Do the workouts that my cousin provided for me, and figure out this food thing. I need to up my protein intake and fruit intake.

It’s just so exhausting to do all of this. My mind gets stuck often, and I’m like, Is it fear? Whatever it is, it needs to go! I need stability, but a working flow that I can flow in and out of. Something needs to change fast. I know I can do it. I just need to beat the fear out of me and just go.

So happy holidays and happy new year. May this blog be used more in 2026.