Never take a vacation from your stressful job. You will only come back yearning for the day you can quit and find a better job. One that pays high. High enough for you to pay rent or mortgage and handle your bills with money left over to spend and save. Insurance, great enough to take care of yourself with. Peace of mind, not having to deal with the overbearing politics and stupidity of the workplace. Don’t you want that?

I took a two-week vacation for my birthday, and I’m slowly regretting it. Coming back to work for the first time in two weeks left me exhausted, stressed, and confused. How was I making it beforehand? Barely. I need another two weeks followed by six more weeks of vacation. The city pays in pennies and the insurance is ass. I work with imbeciles, and I only trust two people, plus the two in different departments. Everyone else can eat ass for all I care.

I got so much writing done within those two weeks, and now I’m stuck. I regret traveling out of town because I didn’t get to finish my room. I’m certain there is a big spider that’s dead on the windowsill, stuck on the curtains. I’m not touching that, not going near it. Got fussed at for spending too much on the emergency credit card, which I understand, and I’m not completely annoyed at.

I hope and pray I can garner enough energy to start looking for a job. I need one so badly. A new one. Something that works for me where I’m not around overbearing people and politics. I want to forget that this place ever existed in the first place. Forget the place, the people, the scenery. Something new, something great, something just for me. God needs to get on his P’s and Q’s and find me something better fast, the angels too!

Then there’s school to worry about. I plan to go back next January. Hopefully, I can save up enough for at least another semester. I need to figure out how this debt reconciliation works because I keep getting calls, and it’s annoying. I need to answer them and tell them to send it to collections and leave me alone. I have no money to pay it off, and my credit is in the late 400s now. I want to cry, but it is what it is. Back to the school thing, I need to get my degree and certifications. That will help me get a better job. But those degree classes are hard for me. I feel like I’m not retaining the vast amount of information needed. I bought a five-subject notebook to write down notes for the CompTIA A+ exam 1201. I just need to pass 1201 and 1202. Lord knows I need it.

At least the vacation helped me put things in order in my mind. I need a gaming desktop computer. Cost around 2k. I think I can do it if I pay down Affirm. Just gotta play it smart. That’s in addition to the car note, debt rec, the car virtual key that I am still paying back, and some fourth thing.

I’ll figure it out. Keep it cool, keep it calm.

No more vacation for a while. We’re really in it now!