I asked God and the Archangels to remove him and her from my life.

This has gone too far. Way too far. I’m losing sleep over the Situation. I thought I was getting over it, but I wasn’t. Grief, trauma, and pain take a very long time to work through. I keep thinking about how he ignored me. I keep thinking about how she verbally assaulted me. I keep thinking about how he insulted my well-being, my looks, my thoughts, my kindness, my love. How she insulted everything above, but my love.

So I asked God to fix it. Remove them from my life. If he, at least, is to stay, then God needs to prove it to me, but I doubt He will. He has a plan for me, for him, and for her. I’m the only spiritual one, so I can see the forest for the trees. But I keep thinking about how we are not close at all anymore.

I did ask God if he wanted to say anything to me; he needed to say it before I officially move on, through God’s grace and mercy. I’ve been thinking about the Mi Shebeirach prayer for healing, and I think I will say it often to heal myself. Also, for when times I don’t think about this, a Shehecheyanu prayer will be spoken from my lips. I’m getting God involved whether He wants to or not. I have GOT to move on. I want and need to be free from this heartache. It’s to the point that I don’t even want to be friends with him. He has single-handedly barred me from all male friendships. And he’s all about the breaking of gender and equal opportunity. He’s a bullshiter and doesn’t realize he has hurt somebody who supported him, who cared for him when he was down.

Dear Moses, I need God and the Archangels to help me move on, please. I’m begging.