My bad, everyone. I’m sorry for not being online as much. Life has been lifeing.

I have been between days, half asleep, half awake. Tired, exhausted even. I’ve been stressed about life. I have been dealing with domestic violence via mental illness from my family. A death in the family, well, an extended family. It’s been hot and sweltering. But to get to something I’m learning.

I believe that I’ve learned to let go on my own terms. When someone is hot and cold with you because they are suffering through their own personal hell, you leave them how you found them. Watching a friendship wither in real time is hurtful, especially if you’re like me, who finds it hard to be social and make friends.
Second, I know this will be a lot for me to get over, but I think for now, I will keep from making male friends unless they are openly queer or at least know that they are queer and that they are like me, where they are not open to family. I can handle that. Heterosexual men? Nah. Not doing it again.

But that’s about it for updates. I have nothing else going on at this time. I can’t seem to get myself to play video games or write because it’s too hot to do so. Maybe I’ll obsessively pick it back up in the late fall, early winter.