It is hard for me to let something or someone go. I am a Taurus after all. I like to hold on to the thought of things becoming better, becoming good. When the truth is in my face, I squirm, trying to find ways to deny the raging current in front of me. Change. I can accept change. It has to happen, but I want it on my terms. That is never so. So for once, I listen to my gut, I listen to my environment. The cards are telling me to let it go. The universe is telling me to let you go. And so I shall. It is hard for me to do this, for I hope that things will change for the better, for my benefit. It never does.

And so once again, I let you go, I let it go for a second time. I’m getting into the groove of this thing, this aspect of letting go, but I still yearn. See, the yearning is what makes it hard. Knowing that you’ve had wonderful times with someone, enjoying something, and you see it die in real time.
The agony, the pain of holding on to something you’ve should have let go a long time ago. The loss of a relationship, the loss of a friendship, the loss of your own identity. It takes a toll on you, so much so that you lose a large chunk of yourself. You start saying things like, “I’ll never love or live again!”, or “I’ll never deal with this kind of person again!”. It’s not true, the universe, the archangels, the ancestors, God, will put this same situation in front of you again, to see if you learned your lesson.
You’ll know if you’re ready to move on when you’re able to see the future and remember the past, to make conscious decisions in the present. You’ll then learn to let it go. That person’s not serving a purpose for you? Let them go. That situation or place isn’t aligning with who you are or want to be? Let it go. You deserve to keep your dignity, damn everything else. So why can’t you let it go?

I’m finally tired. For the first time, I’ve gained peace, I’ve gained understanding, I’ve gained reassurance in what I’m letting go of. It’s positively overwhelming and for good reason. I slowly begin to forget how this person makes me feel. I slowly begin to forget that place that I was bound to. I am in the present, looking to my future, and thanking the past for its lessons.

Again, letting go is hard for me, but I think I can do it this time. Focus on me, I am the only person that matters. What makes me feel good, feel whole, is what matters, and for that, I owe it to myself to let this shit go.