Hey everybody!

So I am still alive, surprisingly. I have random updates to share!

First, I passed my classes from this past term, so I’m very excited about that. I am now A+ certified. Doesn’t mean I can leave my job, though. I still have four more classes and my capstone to do, and THEN, and only then, will I have my degree. I am also considering pursuing a master’s in cybersecurity for reasons I do not yet understand.

Second. At work, I was accused of harassment of a library staff member. Oh yes, that girl I told y’all about? She was the accuser. It is particularly my fault as I befriended a friend of hers who was too busy and not often in the building to see her, so she, with old girl knowing, wanted to send her nice little letters to brighten her day. Apparently, the notes were weird and creepy, and I’m like, this is your friend? I even told ole girl that she had notes and I was only dropping them off. But, apparently, that’s harassment on my end. I took it on the chin, though, and just dealt with it. Definitely blocked ole boy because I don’t trust him anymore, and he, along with her, is trying to get me fired. I spoke to my coworkers about it, and they are befuddled as to how anything like this could have happened and how they, as well as I, feel I was set up. I wouldn’t be surprised. So now I, not the library manager, have banned myself from even being over there. If something dire happens, I won’t tell them. They are on their own. I won’t even acknowledge them if they walk by. I only go over there to use the bathroom since it’s not in the actual library.

Third. I’m getting into angel magic and learning to rely on God and his archangels. It’s been an interesting time, and they do respond to me. It’s weird but exciting, and I can’t wait to see how this will enrich my life.

Fourth. One of my mutuals and I got into a discussion about how memes can carry harmful context into everyday life. She felt that I was forcing her to adhere to my views when all I was doing was letting her know that the meme was harmful to her ethnicity. It ultimately turned into me, a Black person, attacking a Latina person. So I just blocked her, and she’s being whiny about it, talking about muting me, but still reading my posts. Like ok. You’re being a victim. Please move on. Can’t even have thoughtful conversations with idiots like her. Plus, my mutuals have been warning me that she takes offense to everything and wants to be kissed in the ass a lot. Not me. I don’t do that.

Random. I’m getting tired of people saying that to enjoy fandom, you have to create your own stuff. How is that possible when you have the artistic skill of a gnat and don’t have the time to sit and devote to being better because all you do is work, study, and sleep? How is that possible if you don’t possess the money to get work commissioned? How is that possible when you see your favorite character basically being diminished and ignored by fandom and only being thrown into things to benefit another ship or grouping, to be shady? I’m tired of it. I’m tired of liking things that no one gives the time of day to. I feel alone out here.

Lastly, Mercury retrograde whooped my ass at the last minute, so I’m tired. I am also not looking forward to Venus retrograde soon and this Saturn and Neptune bullshit. My twelve house profection year in Virgo is also whooping my ass mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I think I’m going to move silently from now on. Just go with the flow and fuck with myself, fully. I don’t have time for wayward people, places, and moments. If you’re not down for and with me, I have no use for you. Period.

That’s it for now. Hopefully, my next update isn’t four years from now.